Life Update: Where I Am Now After a Season(s) of Deep Healing

I wanted to take a moment to share where I am today. If you’ve been following my journey, you know that burnout and sharing my inner world can sometimes feel a little heavy. So here’s a moment of clarity—a life update that feels more like sunshine than shadow.

Before my self-care sabbatical, I lived in a constant state of anxiety. Waves of deep heaviness would crash in without warning, and I felt like I couldn’t trust anything good. Hope felt slippery. Even small, everyday interactions—whether with people I knew or strangers—felt like they would somehow end in pain. I would absorb it, stuff it down, and keep going. Looking back now, I see how hard I was trying to function through it all. I have deep compassion for that version of me.

But life today? It’s unrecognizable in the best way.

I’m no longer in burnout. I’m not living in that murky in-between of being “not quite broken, but not quite healed.” I feel rooted, steady, and more myself than I’ve ever been. One of the biggest turning points came in March 2024 during a guided meditation I was lead to connect with my Higher Self.

When I connected with my Higher Self in that meditation, something shifted. She was calm. Confident. Unbothered by outside expectations. Life moved toward her, she chased nothing. She didn’t hustle to be understood or shape herself to fit the world. Witnessing her was like seeing a completely different version of myself, one I didn’t know I could become. Up until that point, I had lived my life chasing the next life moment and doing everything I could to climb the corporate ladder as fast as possible. Feeling that calm confidence became one of my strongest anchor points.

For most of my life, I don’t think I had ever really met the calm version of me. But now, I know her well.

In the past year especially, I’ve started to feel truly comfortable around people again. I used to carry this heavy idea in my head that people didn’t like me, which left me feeling awkward and unsure. That internal story would spiral any time I met someone new. What I’ve come to realize is that those simply weren’t my people. That lesson was a revelation. I stopped forcing myself into spaces that didn’t feel good. I started honoring the simple truth that when you’re around the right people, you don’t have to question your worth. You just are.

I began putting myself out there again—attending events alone, meeting new people, opening up to possibility. It changed everything. I don’t feel isolated or invisible anymore. I’ve made beautiful new friendships and found a sense of community that has elevated my life in the most natural, soul-affirming way.

Another big shift was that I’ve gotten comfortable with my story. I no longer speak from a place of shame or embarrassment. This is my experience. It shaped me, deepened me, and called me home to myself. The people who have stood by me through it all know my depth and our relationships have only grown stronger because of it.

I used to be in a constant rush. If I wasn’t trying to move faster physically, I was mentally sprinting from my own thoughts and feelings. That’s no longer my reality. There’s such deep peace in finally feeling in control of my life again. It’s helped me see what really matters.

No, I’m not exactly where I want to be just yet. Is anxiety still present? Sometimes, but its for real things like being a new business owner, now what my life is going to be like five years from now.

I know I’m walking in the right direction and that makes all the difference. This new chapter feels expansive and alive. The joy is real. The calm is real. The trust is real.

And the best part? I know there’s so much more goodness to come.